untuk awak (v 2.0)

awak

hati saya dah tak macam dulu lagi

surprise

its been 3 year for you and me

and here a simple surprise from me to u

simple but nice to remember

isn't it?

cupcakes ordered here

thanks to him for the delivery and nice cuppies

\(^_^)/

untuk awak (v1.0)

awak

janganlah mengugat hati saya

aduyaiii.. saya ni fragile orangnye

jangan lah berkata-kata begitu

nanti kalau saya betol2 jatuh hati macam mane

kesian kat si 'dia' nanti

tibe-tiba saya lari tinggalkan 'dia'

hanya sebab saya dah angaw kat awak

ishhh... jangan la sampai begitu

kita kan kawan

sampai bila-bila pon akan tetap kawan okeyh

awak jangan la berkata-kata begitu

memberi ayat-ayat yang boleh

membuatkan jantung saya berdegup kencang

pipi saya kemerahan

semuanye jadi tak keruan

seperti yang saya kata tadi

saya ni fragile orang nya

tolong ye..

(^_^)/

**untuk cik diyanah amin, kalau anda tahu siapa 'awak' yang di maksudkan tu.. sila DIAM-DIAM saja.. depan saya pon jangan berkata APA-APA ok.. saya ni FRAGILE orangnye**

3

3

the odd number

3

the magical number

3

'you and me'

280907 - 280910

its been 3 years

full with

3 magical words

-i love you-

and sometimes filled with

3 killed words

-i hate you-

full with

3 emotions

-love + miss + happy-

sometimes filled with

3 feelings of

hatred + annoyed + furious

3 years we been thru

the journey filled with lots of obstacles

but

3 years we been together

i learned lots

thank you *awak*

**saya sayang awak.. awak tolong jaga saya baik2 okeyh.. nanti saya lari tinggalkan awak nanti**

forgive

we easily forgive people

because

we still want them in our live

i forgive but i wont forget

all the mistakes that u ever made

it doesnt meant that i will talk about it

but just as a caution to me for the next time

i forgive but i wont put the trust

like i used to do before

i doesnt meant that i dont trust u at all

i just wont to be hurt again

yes

i forgive

and yes

i want you in my life

but please dont take me for granted

coz i am ordinary human dat do has heart and feeling

i cant promise that ill always be there

when things happen more than twice

feelings

"Feelings don't die easily

coz we keep feeding them with memories.

That's exactly the reason why it's so hard to move on"

take by Diyanah

Quote by Nina

the rest of my life

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you.loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever II`ll be there for you

Some Things Are Felt

Some things are felt

and not spoken

and when i want to ask for them

i CANT

and if you do them

after i ask for them

then there's no use

some things are felt

and not spoken

that hurt in the heart

but it doesnt show

and i stay tired of all the time

between telling you or not saying a word

i CANT tell you to change your whole approach of loving me

or have some jealous towards me

or surprise me once and bring me a gift

or to let me live and see something i didnt expect

i CANT tell you to make the world a more beautiful place in my eyes

and change things in me

no matter how close you are to me or from me

i CANT tell you the way i WANT our life to be

you SHOULD know by yourself

sometimes it appears that i have stayed quiet

and calmed down, pleased, and gotten used to it

this doesnt mean that you think i have given up

and sometime you feel that i have gotten bored of this

though im just hiding the tiredness

oh my love, dont let me reach a stage where i'd say

"i wish i had spoken and said something"

how i wish

how i wish i didnt know you

then i wouldnt love you

how i wish i didnt love you

then i wouldnt need you

how i wish i didnt need you

then i wouldnt think of you

how i wish i didnt think of you

then i wouldnt hurt my self

but after all

how i wish i met u earlier

then i would love you more

need you a little longer

think of you all the time

loving you is the best thing i can do

i hope you felt the same way too

but if you dont,

please tell me the truth

so i can heal my heart earlier

before i fall more deeper in love

10 Things I HATE ABOUT YOU

1. you got a very good looking until other tries to get your attention
2. you were too cool till i cant argue no more
3. you always tell me the truths went sometimes i just want to hear a bit lies
4. you always care about me until i cant be independent
5. you always there for me until i cant felt lonely
6. you always said that u love and miss me until i felt nothing with those words
7. you put me on the first when sometimes i want to be your last
8. you hurt me by letting me think and missing you the whole day
9. you dont said too much when i want to hear your voice

and last but not least

the MOST reason why i HATE you is..

10. you let me fall in love with you.. and this love became stronger and stronger each day..

love

i became

too protective

too sensitive

too emotional

just because of love

i dont love you like i did yesterday

because i love you more than yesterday

red DEVIL

lately ni
bila sedang keretaku menyusuri jalan raya
and ade la dua tiga keta yang agak
NO MANNERS
ntah mane dapat lesen ntah
and persamaan diantara kenderaan2 yang
NO MANNERS ni ialah
mereka mesti ade pelekat RED DEVIL tu
memang sesuai sangat la tu
bawak keta cam DEVIL tu yg sokong RED DEVIL tu

owh..
kepada penyokong RED DEVIL yang len
yang tiba terasa puting beliung dalam badan dengan statement ni

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

hua hua hua

ramadhan

ramadhan tahun 90an...

saya masih teringat lagi.. saat memula belajar puasa.. ya amppunn.. sangat susah.. sudah terbiasa makan.. tetiba ibu suh pose.. ookk oww.. tapi stendad la kan.. pose bebudat kochik ni.. pose yang yang yok.. tp saya tak bukak periuk okeyh!! saya minum air dalam kolam mandi / dalam bilik air je.. hak hak ha.. time pose tu, air dalam bilik mandi tu la yang palingggg sedap skali.. sungguh!! tak tipu.. kalo nggak caya, iyaa.. silakan cuba.. hi hi hi.. dedolu time sekolah rendah kan ke sesi petang.. so balik sekolah je, sampai umah dalam 6.30pm.. time tu dah nak berbuka pose dah pon.. tapi saya dulik ape.. mase mandi tu, mesti nganga mulut kat shower.. nyumm nyummm.. delicious sungguh.. macam rase air ribena.. pastu dah abes mandi, pura-pura pose and buat muka toya.. pastu dapat pujian sebab berjaya puasa penuh.. hua hua hua..

pastu time cuti.. petang2 dapat la sorg rm2.. rm2 time tu agak besar okeh!! dapat duit, mesti g stesen minyak mobil then bli air tin.. pas buka pose, minumm and tersandar kekenyangan air.. =P.. sungguh gembira saat itu.. tak perlu pikir ape..


ramadhan tahun 2000an...

fhuiiihh.. time ni, sangat heaven.. almaklumlah otak dah pandai memanipulasi.. pendek cte, otak menipu!! kih kih kih.. and dat time pon dah baligh la katakan.. so pompuan kan ade cuti seminggu.. tp kadang2 dengan sengaja nye ganjakkan sampai 10 hari dan keatas.. jahat sungguh saya ni.. tp gantinye sangatlah malas..

masih ku teringat lagi, saya pernah dengan selamba nye meminum air di khalayak ramai okeh!! dat time nk g shopping raya la katakan.. so ape lagi.. Jalan TAR le tujunya.. kan ke panas.. ramai orang.. penat tok sah cite lagi.. almaklumlah, adik beradik ade 6 orang.. so kena la pastikan kesemua nya dapat!! and semua nye agak cerewet memilih.. muka den ni kan ade cam amoi jual sayur.. dat time pon masih belum berhijab.. rambut kaler maler lagi.. so dah penat memilih.. dengan selamba ku tonggang air di tengah-tengah jalan TAR tu.. ade gak la org dok pandang.. tp pandangan biasa je.. mungkin dalam hati mereka berkata, "amoi ni mmg kurang sopan".. hahaha.. tu belum lagi saya dengan selamba pergi fast food dan mengorder nya.. pergi ke kedai runcit membeli air.. wahaha.. sungguh kurang sopan diri ni..

ramadhan tahun ini..

moga di berkati setiap tugasan yang di jalani dan kehidupan yang di lalui.. moga di limpahkan rezeki yang Halal dan berkat.. aminn..

dan juga berazam, tidak mahu memonteng puasa dengan sengaja!! (Mampukah??)

so.. rry

I put a doubt on you

and because of that

i am sorry

I make tears drop on your face

and because of that

i am sorry

I hurt you with my words

and because of that

i am sorry

I asked for things that too sensitive for you

and because of that

i am sorry

i hurt you by telling the truth from me

and because of that

i am not sorry

U were lost but u doesnt led people to help you

and because of that

i am not sorry

U couldnt find your way back coz u were too ego to ask

and because of that

i am not sorry

yesterday, today and tomorow

yesterday
i know nothing
i have to learn ABC and 123
they taught me how to pee

today
i know lots of thing
i have to learn to survive
and they taught me how to make money

tomorow
im not sure if i know everything
i might learn on how to live
and maybe they will taught me how to lie

circle of life

sometimes
kita akan tertanye-tanye
after all the hardworks we did, there is none in return

kita kadang-kadang doubt about that

doesnt God notice us?

kita terlupa and kita alpa
bahawa setiap yang terjadi ade Qada' dan Qadarnya

i once read one article

"setiap yang kita lakukan, kadangkala takkan kita peroleh balasannya terus pada kita.. contoh nya macam bila kita sedang memandu.. bila tiba di persimpangan, ada sebuah kereta nak keluar.. then kita beri dia laluan.. an then we kept our way.. sampai lah kita pula yang tibe di persimpangan dan memohon laluan daripada kenderaan lain.. adakah kita masih mengharapkan kereta yang sama yang telah kita beri laluan itu untuk memberikan kita laluan pula? tak mungkin bukan.. sebab kereta tersebut mungkin tidak lagi sama jalan dengan kita.. maka kenderaan lain pula yang memberikan kita laluan.."

sama juga seperti yang kita lalui dalam hidup ini..

sometimes bila kita rase kita ni tak di hargai.. segala susah payah kita tak terbalas.. segala penat lelah kita tidak diiktiraf oleh pihak atasan.. never ever kita frustrated and rase useless.. walaupun pihak atasan tak nampak penat lelah kita, usaha kita dan sebagainya.. tapi kita masih punya ALLAH s.w.t.. and sometimes ALLAH s.w.t bayar balik penat lelah dan usaha kita itu dalam bentuk yang berbeza..

mungkin DIA memberikan kita rezeki yang murah.. mungkin DIA menganugerahkan kita zuriat yang berjaya.. atau mungkin dia memberikan kita rumah tangga yang amahn bahagia.. sahabat yang sanggup bersusah senang bersama.. atau sebagainya secara indirectly..

itu lah kitaran hidup..

she and he

she missed him but she cant hugged him..

She love him but she cant kissed him..

She is crying whenever she think of him, but he is not there to wipe her tears..

He is gone, but he will always there in her heart..

He is up there smiling to her..

He is there, watching Her

even she cant hold him, kissed him, hugged him and watch him

She still felt his appearance and his love

not even she, but others too

she still got Her to take a good care

she still have her to show how she love her

she is now another her strength

she have to be tough and strong

and also, she still have us

peribahasa hatiku

kalau padi katakan padi

tidak aku tertampi-tampi

usah nanti

mata telah rabun

bandar pun terbuka

gigi telah gugur

tebu pun menjadi

someone to change

some one who u really hate
some one who u might feel regret to know
some one who u'll think "why on earth should she alive"

some one is very bad
act like a slut
said like a bitch


MESS with ME
and i can turn
to that some one

can i turn back to the old days

can i back to the old days
where i used to be a kid
which i dun have to think much by that age
i just concern on what to play or what to eat
i dun have to think of others
i dun have to think for money
i dun have to study so hard
i just play, eat and sleep
i dun have to impress people
and i dun have to carry the burdens
i dun have to pay the debts
i dun have to drive
i dun have to do all of things
can i back to the old days?