strength of sadness

saat ku terjatuh... dan terluka.. kalian bantu saya untuk berdiri kembali.. membersihkan luka ku itu dan mengubatinya.. sakit dari kelukaan itu, beransur pergi meskipun meninggalkan kudis dan lama-lama menjadi parut yang kekal.. namun, ianya adalah satu pengalaman hidup yang setiap orang pernah melaluinya..

saat ku terjatuh itu, kalian meniupkan kata-kata semangat, agar aku terus bangkit dari masa silam demi masa depan.. kenangan masa silam di simpan rapi di ruang ingatan yang paling dalam dan amat berharga untuk di ungkap kembali..

saat ku terjatuh itu hari.. seluruh angota badan gagal berfungi.. fikiran melayang-layang.. terasa seakan nafasku separuh berhenti... dadak sungguh sesak.. namun kalian tetap di sisi, membantu aku mencari kehidupan ku yang dahulunya penuh dengan warna warni..

aku jatuh.. dan bangun kembali.. dan suatu hari nanti.. aku pasti jatuh lagi.. namun ku harapkan, pelangi yang mengiringi bukan lagi mentari..

while i were really down, someone said this.. which for me was so dam sweet dat make me feel alive again.. million thanks to dat person.. u know who u are..

"while u were only think of that person, there were US keep thinking of ur condition.
while u were only missing that person badly, there were US who miss the "cheeky, notty, n happpy" aida badly too..
while u were worried if u could not live w/out that person, there were US who worried of losing OUR aida..how would we have fun w/out u..afraid of losing the fun u always give to others
while u were crying of that person..were were crying too with u..
its very difficult and sadden to see u in this way..there r less smile, less talk..everything less..please..be strong sahabat..i noe u can do it..dun be sad too long..coz ibu is the most worried person bout u..u lost that person..but not us.

ya Allah..kau kuatkan la semangat dia agar dia kembali seperti biasa. kembalikan lah senyuman yg sentiasa menyinari hidup kami ya allah.."